Sunday, June 19, 2011

The next we have

lets proceed
to give u what u need
*music on*

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon
Trying to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away~

Saturday, June 18, 2011

How to let go of suffering

Many of us from all walks of life and at every level of society have become addicted to suffering. Our addiction reaches such an extent that even when everything seems to be going perfectly; we find a reason to feel bad. A classic example is during those times when everything is going far too well, it feels too good to be true, and we look for ways to question, doubt and even complain about our good fortune! The good news is we can free ourselves.

1. Rising above
For some of us there may be a certain comfort in suffering, in being a victim, because we don’t have to take responsibility; it’s much easier to blame someone else for our own discontent. Some of us get lost in the suffering we have been through in the past, unable to embrace things anew or see them through fresh eyes. We then miss out on experiencing the beauty of the present moment. We need to restore our innocence and focus on the love within us and in the world. This requires rising beyond he discontent of the intellect, and embrace freedom and joy in every moment.
2. Living in the moment
Living in the moment helps us rise above the judgments and complaints of the intellect to embrace the world around us with innocent, joyful acceptance.  When we experience love-consciousness, we realize that everything is perfect exactly as it is. This does not mean we shouldn’t want to improve our situations and grow. Evolution is the nature of life, and everything is always moving forward; but if we choose to embrace the beauty of what is happening right now, instead of focusing on what we perceive as wrong, love grows, instead of fear

3. Taking responsibility
In order to find true freedom from suffering, we need to begin to find happiness within. As adults, we may resist taking responsibility for our dissatisfaction. It’s easier to blame the politicians, our parents, religion, pollution, our bosses, and so on. We can change our external circumstances ad infinitum, but in reality that will never change anything. The outside is just a mirror of our own discontent. Fulfillment, peace, joy, and love do not come from outside. 

4. Speaking the truth
In modern society, we have learned to lie all the time. We lie to please others,  to defend ourselves, and to hide the parts of ourselves we have learned to judge as wrong or inappropriate. We think, It’s just a little lie, but there are hundreds of them! Whenever we lie, we are abandoning ourselves; we are not loving ourselves. Whenever we modify ourselves in order to receive love, we are separated from self. In speaking our truth, on the other hand, we never compromise ourselves in the search of approval from the outside.
5. Free yourself now
We can find freedom from our addiction to suffering when we choose, instead, to focus on love.

Imagine when you look in the mirror

that the face looking back at you is someone you truly love.

Just imagine. . . 

Them, I miss

Taking a deep breath
exhale *sigh

today, i look back on the pictures in my storage
and how i miss them sooo much!
look at them. hellyeah!crazy isn' it?
with friend like them, who needs enemy right?
we fight like sisters, take care like brothers
aku cubit kau, kau cepuk aku
aku tampar kau, kau sepak kejar aku
bile nak habis...hehehe
peace yaww!

it has been 4years of laugh and tear we've been thru together
no matter what we are sisters..
lots of love

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Life as we know it

Here how it goes,
no matter how much i try to forget, u're still coming into my dreams and it turns out into a nightmare
and i hate it
what can i say
if youre it, youre it
i try time and again to see you in a different light..
with eyes untainted by social perception..
unheard of gossip and hate-speech..
but damn!!
you just had to go get in my face again..
cant you just leave quietly.. tail between legs..
i mean, seriously..
you ass has been handed to you the last time..
and you still have the nerve to show that snotty nose of yours..
claiming to still be on top when it is soo clear that you cant take the view..
just please..
at the end of it
dont pretend like its your decision to leave
because we all know that its u who cant afford to stay..